२०६८ कार्तिक ! एक रात्री कालिमाटीमा

अतितका तिता मिठा अनुभवहरु आज मेरो मानासपलटमा सागरको छालसरी कलाबाजी खेलिरहेको छ , सायद त्यसैले होला हातमा कलम समाई मध्यरातको यस चकमन्न समयमा मनका खुल्दुलिहरु बिसर्जीत गर्न यी औलाहरु तम्सिरहेका छन् । २६ बर्ष बितेको पटक्कै भान भएन यद्यपी बितेका समयको एक छ्यण पनि मलाई यसरि कागज कोर्न मन लागेको चेतना थिएन । आज एक्काशी लेख्न मन किन आतुर भईरहेको छ ? सायद बिगतको बेदनाले होकी आउदो भविस्यको उराठलाग्दो त्राशले कागजमै दुइ शब्द लेखेर भए पनि मनको बिरहलाई पोख्न आतुर छ यो मन ।

हेर्दा हेर्दै समयले फास्ट फार्वर्ड गरेको छ. गत महिना आइरन बिग्रेर सुरु भएको यो सिलसिला मेरो आइपड हुदै अहिले ल्याप्तोप सम्म पुगेको छ । समय व्यतित गर्न निकै गार्हो हुदो रहेछ, त्यहिपनि मनमा जे आउँछ त्यहि लेखेर समय व्यतित गरिरहेको छु । अहिले कागज र कलमले वर्ड र कम्प्युटरलाई बिर्सायेका छन् छ्यनिक भरको लागि भएपनि । मन ननै अध्यात्ममा लाग्छ ननै भौतिकवादतिर । मन बैराग्गियेर हावामा कसिंगर उडेझैँ अज्ञात गन्तव्यतिर रुमल्लियिरहेको छ । अब बल्ल बुझे जस्तो लाग्छ किन मन र मस्तिकछलाई देउतासंग तुलना गरिएको । निराश, निकम्मा, अकर्मन्य, अनाकर्सक यो सुस्तरी सास फेरिरहेको जीवन खोक्रो दम्ब देखाएर भएपनि आफ्नो गन्तब्य खोजि रहेको छ, भुलीरहेको छ, मानौ प्रसन्न मुद्रामा स्वयम् नारायण आउनेछन् अगाडी अनि दिने छन् मुफ्तमा तिन बरदान । हुनत नारायण पनि पावर भएकै देउता हुन् । त्रेता युगमा राम बनेर रावणलाई तह लगाए भने द्वापर युगमा कृष्ण बनेर कंशलाइ तर कलियुगमा यिनलाई हम्मे हम्मे परे जस्तो छ त्यसैले नेपालमा हाल दुइ वटा अवतार लिएका छन् । एकातिर शितल निवासमा उनै राम, उतातिर सिंघदर्बारमा त झन् बाबुराम र ब्याकअपमा पशुपतिनाथ ।

मनको खुल्दुली पानामा उतार्न ल्याप्तोपले त साथ् दिएननै भाग्यले पनि साथ नदेला जस्तो छ. एक पलमा मेरो कोठाको उज्यालो अध्यारोमा परिणत हुन पुगेको छ. निकै बेरपछि आभाष भयो यो त मेरो दिनचर्याको एक अभिन्न अंग बन्न पुगेको लोडसेदिंग पो रहेछ. कोठामा उज्ज्यालो हरायेजस्तै छ्यनिक रुपमा मेरो सुद्धिपनि हराएछ. अध्यारोमा छामछाम छुम छुम गर्दै मैनबत्ती खोज्न लागे, बल्लतल्ल भेटेपछि फेरी कागजमा देशको सरकारप्रतिको घृणा पोख्न पन लाग्यो see poisoned ethics तर आवेशलाई थामेर आफ्नै स्वप्नासंसारतिर लागे । सडकका कुकुरहरुको भुकाईको निरन्तर आवाज आईरहेको थियो मनमा लाग्यो यी कुकुरहरु मध्येरातको समयमा पनि हाम्रो टोलको सुरक्छ्याको निमित्त तम्तयार छन् । आफ्नो कर्तब्य प्रति कति धेरै निष्ठा यिनीहरुको । सायद हाम्रो देशको नेताहरु पनि कुकुर भईदिएको भए देश कति सुरक्छित हुन्थ्यो होला । फेरी प्रसङ्ग आफ्नै समस्यातिर मोडिएको छ । ग्यास सकिएको पनि दुइ हफ्ता भईसक्यो, कालिमाटीको फोहोर रेस्तुरेन्टमा दिगमिग मान्दै खाएको पनि हफ्तौ भईसक्यो,जहिले सोधेपनि पसलेले ग्यास छैन मात्र भन्छ । कोठाको बाल्टिन रित्तै छन्,आज रातीत पानि औछा कि र भरुम । कुनातिर मिनेरल वाटरका खाली बोतलहरु प्रसन्न मुद्रामा मलाई चिढयाईरहेका छन् ,मैला लुगाहरु काठमाडौँको फोहोरको राससरि थुप्रिएका छन् । यो हफ्ता त जसरिपनि दिदीको घरमा सबै लुगाहरु धुन लैजानेछु. त्यतिकैमा मोबाइलको रिंगको आवाज गुन्जियो । घरबाट फोन आएको रैछ । फोन उठाए उताबाट हेलो भनेको सुनियो त्यसपछि केहि आवाज नसुनिएको जस्तो नबुझिने आवाज आयो, कोठामा केहि बेर हेलो हेलो सब्दको आवाज सुनिरहयो मानौ म ठुला ठुला स्वरमा अंग्रेजी सब्दहरु उच्चारण गरिरहेको थिए । त्यस पछी फोन कट्यो । सरकारी नेटवर्कलाइ सराप्न मन लग्यो फेरीपनि मन संभाले आफैभित्र गुम्सायिराखे । एक्काशी कोठाको बिजुली आयो । सियफलको प्रकाश संगै मेरो मस्तिक्छ पनि एकोहोरो भएको भाव भयो. दायाँ बायाँ यत्रतत्र सर्वत्र समस्याको भुमरीमा छु जस्तो लाग्यो. कताबाट सुरु गरुम समस्या सुल्झ्याउँन अत्यन्तै गार्हो होला जस्तो छ बरु एकछिन को लागि भए पनि मस्तिक्छ खालि बनाउछु, सुत्छु बरु फेरी मध्येरातमा नेपाल खानेपानीको बोलावा आउँछ, एकछिनको लागि भए पनि सुकुन गन्छु, कलम बिसाँउछु।

What I have done and what I have not !

I dont take the credit for publishing this post. I would have to admit that I copied the concept for this post from Sadhana . Its the attraction in the theme which I could not resist.

It is really difficult admitting something which might ruin your image and I am not quite sure I would be able to do it now but I promise to do it in future when I could gather enough guts within myself.

What I have done so far?

1. Flown in a Jet : Yes, to be exact 5 times [Update] Now as of Feb 7 2012 It is 9 times.


2. Adventure sports : Did Bungy jump from 160m cliff. Went to pokhara for Paragliding from sarangkot hill. My plan was canceled 15 minutes prior to scheduled time for paragliding due to sinister rain. Sky diving is on my list as well but the bottomline for sky diving is that I have to go abroad.


3.Been to continents ? Only Asia I regret. Europe and America is on my list. OK, no bias with continents I add Africa, Australia and Antarctica too on the list. Fingers crossed for my wish. [Update] 2012 January I stepped on Europe in Frankfort and have been living in North America [USA]. Now its the turn for Australia, Africa.


6.Been to different countries ? Nepal, India, Japan just three until now. There are a lot of countries in my cards of visit. I would love to go to Iceland, Sicily Italy, Paris, Galapagos, Vienna and USA. More to add to this list. Its 4 now [2012]. USA added to the list in Jan 11 2012


7.Swimming : Been to pool but I cannot swim. 5 feet depth is the ultimate place I would dare to be.


8.Eaten raw meat : Ya, From Raw fish, Raw squid, Raw flesh of whale, Raw octopus, Raw sea-urchin, Raw crab and finally now don't blame me, I was forced this time : Raw flesh of horse.


9.Had crush on a girl : hahaha, Yes I am not an objection :) But never had a girlfriend until now. Now don't ask for her name. The only hint I can give is that her name starts from A and ends on A.


10. Lived in freezing cold : Yes, In Hokkaido, Japan I lived in a city called Wakkanai near Russia, The northernmost city of Japan where temperature might fall to -30 degree celcius in winter.


11.Seen an Ocean : Yes pacific Ocean in Japan [2008] & pacific ocean from western USA In california


12.Traveled on roof of a bus : Yes, while returning back from Phulchoki hill after watching the snow probably when I was in 3rd year of my B.E. The bus was packed and we did not have any option but rather to travel on top of the bus. Dont regret it :)


13.Touched Snow : Snow was part of my life when I was studying in northern japan. 6 months of snowfall. It was enjoying initially but later on I was fed up throwing snow from my apartment. My door would be jammed by piles of overnight snowfall.


14.Taken alcoholic drinks : Yes :) The first time I tasted beer was when I was in 3rd year B.E. The initial taste was horrible. It was just a sip but enough for me to make a negative image of it. I learned to drink beer in Japan. Now I take it occasionally. I don't drink hard drinks though. Whiskey, Gin, Vodka, Scotch is still a taboo for me. Just beer and that too with friends only.


15. Seen Code monkeys : Yes, a lot of them. I can name them too :D I have also seen the remix version called Gorilla Monkey. My project mates know this :P


What I have not done so far?

1. Never Been to America : It would be a dream come true If i get a chance to go. Want to get an American degree. Its more than just an academic degree. Its a passion, passion to see the world, to be amongst the best in the world would be a matter of pride and honor to any person in this world. [Update] I am in America now :)


2. Never had any girlfriend : Nowadays its become a fashion to have at least one girlfriend. Not having a girlfriend is seen as an inability. I dont have one until now. Fingers crossed :D


3. Never been to a disco : Yet to visit a disco. The reason why i havent been to a discotheque might be because I cant dance. Its not that I dont like dance but I cant do it.


4. Never seen a big mountain close : Its a shame really. I am born in Nepal but am yet to witness the glory of our wonderful mountains. I truly wish to go to Annapurna circuit, Gosaikunda, manang, Mustang to witness lovely mountains which have been in my dreams for decades now.


5. Never danced : The reason is simple as that : I cannot dance. I love doing new stuffs, lets see If I could do it one day.


6. Never got the experience of Roller Coaster : No Roller Coaster in Nepal. [Update] Am thinking of going to a roller coaster in Vegas. Got the first ride in Revenge of the Mummy [Universal Studios 2012] 


7. Never smoked : May be twice, thrice. Just to know what is the magic in it that so many people take it. It was nothing special


And the list for have and have not goes on. The have list will certainly increase in future.